We all miss you so much and I'm sorry it has been so long since I have written a message to you. I've been busy lately... Lynn's death on March 19th, Jamie's 13th birthday on March 22nd, and today (April 22nd) being Michael's 5th birthday. I think about you and Michele, every day....you will always be in my heart, mind, and soul...even if I don't have time to post a message.
Tommy and I took the grandchildren to Youth Fishing Day this morning and then to Misty's for Michael's birthday party. I'll post more to you later....all the children are still here and I don't want them to tear the house down. LOL....
Thinking of You / Kacie Schleier
I'm so sorry that your son passed away so tragically and that he left behind so many that miss him. I can't imagine all that you and your family have been through. His children are so loved to have such a wonderful grandma like you. I hope that you know that in your heart. My thoughts are with you during this holiday weekend!
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Hi Sweetie! / Mom That Loves And Misses You So
Dearest son, So much has been going on here...Jamie was able to come home for good on March 13th. He has been going to school every day and doing well. I was concerned about the possibility of him and Brandon having a set back on March 21st....when I heard your beloved cousin Lynn was killed in a car accident on the 19th. It's hard to imagine four Wade children dying in a three year time frame and all of you being buried together in the same cemetery. I know you were surprised to see your Mom on a Harley on Saturday (after eight years of not riding...only rode for this event, a fundraiser)....I decided to ride your Uncle Ben's Harley in memory of you, Michele, Lynn, and Thomas. I wanted to ride your Harley but your Dad said it wasn't road ready. Watch over all of us here and we will continue to share the precious memories you all left behind with as many people as possible. Send some angel kisses to all of us here...as we send love notes to you and Michele. Love Mom Close
I'm so sorry for the loss of your Precious Son: / Elena Lowery Diane, I am so very sorry for your loss. JJ has a nice smile and I'm sure he was a great son and a great dad. I hope the children will get through this. They are truly blessed to have you for a grandmother. I know you love them dearly. They look a lot like their dad. God bless you all and I'll keep you all in my prayers. lol, Elena (also a mom of an Angel). Close
Dearest son, Things are looking up for Jamie...he has been coming home on weekend passes. If things continue to go well, he will be able to come home with us for good on March 13th. I pray daily for his well being, health, & happiness (all the grandchildren). Watch over us...we miss you and Michele so much. Sending love and hugs to both of you from all of us. Love, Mom and your family
"Lord, your steadfast love is my strength to face each new day while my wounded heart struggles. Though I can't really see the progress, I find myself having the courage to entertain fond memories before they are washed away with my tears. Dear Lord, continue to strengthen my soul!"
Here on earth we are put together in families. Our loved ones become inexpressibly precious to us. We live in intimate associations. One gets so close to mother and father, wife or husband, sons and daughters, that they literally become a part of one's very life. Then comes a day when a strange change comes over one that we love. He is transformed before our very eyes. The light of life goes out for him. He cannot speak to us nor we to him. He is gone and we are left stunned and heartbroken. An emptiness and loneliness comes into our hearts. We brokenheartedly say "That the one whom I loved is dead." It is such a cold, hopeless thing to realize. Then, out of the very depths of our despair, comes that marvelous declaration of our Lord: I am the resurrection, and the life: he that believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live: and whosoever liveth and believeth in me shall never die. John 11: 25,26
Then we know! We know we have not lost our loved ones who have died. We have just been separated, and as long as we live there will be an empty place left in our hearts. To some extent, the loneliness will always be there. But when we really know that one is not forever lost, it does seem to take away, a little bit, of the sorrow. There is a vast difference between precious memories, loneliness, the pain of separation, on the one hand, and a sorrow that ruins and blights our lives, on the other hand.
Hope these words are of comfort to you my friends. Please, please know that you are always on my mind and in my heart and prayers. My hands are not better yet, in fact the left one is very numb right now, so it is hard to type. But even though I can't write every day as I did before, I think of you every day. In Christian Love, Melissa
Not now, but in the coming years, it may be in the better land: we'll read the meaning of our tears, and there, some time, we'll understand.
For Grieving Friends / Melissa Smith (grieving Mom) Read >>
For Grieving Friends / Melissa Smith (grieving Mom)
Loving Savior, today I lift up my friends who are grieving. Give them strength when they feel weak; and when they feel alone in the long chilly night, surround them with a warm blanket of your love and their good memories. Like armor, may this prayer protect them from all harm. May the wind blow their burdens away little by little, so that they experience the freedom of joy once more. I am confident that just one solitary prayer will make a difference in their lives and in mine. Amen.
January update / Mom, That Loves And Misses You So! (mother)
It has been two long years since you died. We love and miss you so much! Jamie is still in the hospital...it has been ten months now and his counselor wants to try something different for today (in reference to the two year date of your death). I am the first person in line to try things to strengthen any of the grandchildren's emotional health (or spiritual and physical health).
I have been sick with the flu for the last few days but I don't have time to lay around...especially when so many things need to be taken care of for the grandchildren. There isn't anyone that can help with the day-to-day events for the children...so I kick into "timex" mode (take a licking and keep on ticking).
I wanted to write a new poem for you but I have been so busy, I haven't taken the time. As long as I am alive, the precious memories of you and Michele will remain alive and active. The first annual Celebration of Life was a success...families of 160+ angels sent their loved ones to be remembered too.
Watch over us here...we need all the help we can get. Sending love and prayers from your loving family.
All our love, Mom and Tommy Brandon and Jamie Jeremy, Trent, Morgan & Michael
He is with us.... / Melissa Smith (grieving Mom) (none)Read >>
He is with us.... / Melissa Smith (grieving Mom) (none)
Heaven knows what you've been through So much pain Even though you can't see I'm not far away Since you went away I light candles and say prayers Know that love still remains
Close your eyes, go to sleep Know my love is all around you Dream in peace, when you wake You will know I'm still with you
Live your life from this day on And love again I know you'd do the same for me That's the way that loves is supposed to be
When you feel those lonely teardrops Rolling down your face Just know my love watches over you Always
Close your eyes, go to sleep Know my love is all around you Dream in peace, when you wake You will know I'm still with you I'm still with you
December message to you, sweetie pie! / Your Loving And Grieving Mom (Mom) Today is December 12, 2005...it has been a long one year, ten months, seventeen days, and twelve hours since we found out that you died and one year, six months, twenty three days, four hours, and thirty minutes since Michele was killed.
Continuing to visit Jamie, at the hospital, on an average of three times a week...I was praying he would be able to have a pass to come home for Christmas but it doesn't seem like he will be able to make it by that day. If he continues to improve, they may make an exception.
I have about 120 angels for the first annual "Celebration of Life" ceremony I'm planning for New Year's Eve. I want to celebrate the lives all of our loved ones and the lives we must continue to live for all of you. I'm going to start a scholarship fund for you and Michele at Paul D. Camp Community College. Dr. Patsy Joyner is going to be a speaker at the ceremony on New Year's Eve.
I stay busy but that doesn't fill the big void in my heart from missing you and Michele. Watch over Brandon and Jamie...may they have some peace, in their mind, from the deep loss of missing both of you. We all miss you both tremendously but it is so much harder for 12 and 13 year old boys. I love you so much!!! Love, Mom
November message for you son! / Your Loving And Grieving Mom
Dearest JJ, Brandon came home on October 17th, I feel he likes being home but still easily upset when talking about feelings. Jamie is still not doing well, the 23rd of this month will make eight months he has been there. They moved him over to the adolescent side...I continuously pray for him to work through some of the pain, anger, and frustration but I guess it is just so overwhelming for him at 12 years old. I am making plans to have a "Celebration of Life" ceremony to honor and remember angels from all across the nation. I plan to do this every year, as long as I am physically, emotionally, and financially able. There is already over sixty angels on the list. Also, we are going to start an Angels Arms scholarship fund at Paul D. Camp Community College in memory of you and Michele. (One for you and one for Michele.) We love and miss you both so much son...I see you both in everything I do and think about. Watch over us here on this mortal earth. Love and kisses to you dearest son, I love you! Close
Dear JJ, I was showing someone your and Michele's sites. I know that you are watching over your family. Be especially close, JJ, as the holidays come upon us. Have your best friend, Jesus, lay his hands upon your mom and your sons. Let them feel His Almightly presence surrounding them in love and peace.
Diane, thank you for visiting my Mikey's site and your words of shared sympathy. You are right, no one can understand unless they have lost a child. It took my breathe away to see you've lost not one, but two children and in so short of time. I'm crying now for you. May God bless you and your family with some peace and warmth. Lots of Love, Judy
October Update / Your Loving Mom
My dearest son, Not a day goes by that I don't think of you and Michele. The last month has been kind of really difficult. Jamie has been having a hard time dealing with all of the emotional turmoil...your birthday on 9-22, their Mom not showing up to see them like she should, and needing surgery on 10/10/05. I pray his surgery will go well...they are putting tubes in both ears, shave the bones in both nostrils, and do allergy testing while he is in surgery. Jamie is really scared about the surgery, I try my best to calm his fears but with all the tragedies that have occurred around him in such a short time....I think only the fact of waking up after the surgery will convince Jamie! My heart breaks for the heartbreaking struggles they deal with day in and day out. When we are adults, we have life experiences and maturity to help us work through difficult days but children do not have that strength or maturity level to help them. Watch over us...especially Jamie. We all love and miss you and Michele so much! Close
Sending prayrs for you and your family. / Gail Burrows (none)Read >>
Sending prayrs for you and your family. / Gail Burrows (none)
The web site you have made for your son is beautiful. Ty for sharing this with all of us. And in doing this you are keeping JJ's memory alive.
Sending you warm gentle hugz and butterfly kisses honey.
Thinking of You / Lynn--Mom To Ken
(((Diane))) I'm just so very sorry to read about your beloved son, J.J. You have created such beautiful sites for both of your children, and your photos and poems are all so wonderful. I know this is a difficult time for you, as J.J.'s Birthday will soon be here. Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. God bless. Love and Prayers, Lynn Mom to Ken Close
Heart Ache for You / Lisa Genest (Angel Mom )Read >>
Heart Ache for You / Lisa Genest (Angel Mom )
I am so sorry for the passing of your son, JJ. Such a young life cut short. There is too much heartche in the world with our children passing. Close
So sorry for your loss / Mylene Roberge (another angel mom )Read >>
So sorry for your loss / Mylene Roberge (another angel mom )
I am very sorry for your loss. A beautiful memory and site of your son. I can't even fathom what it must be like to loose not one but 2 children. My son Sean died after 2 months in the ICU, after his battle with CHD, but a sudden death is something that is unexplainable. Diane you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers, as are JJ's children. JJ wrap those beautiful, soft wings around your children and family, sending them comfort and love. Huge Hugs, xxxxxxxxx
Living through the pain of loss / Katherine Westmoland (visitor)Read >>
Living through the pain of loss / Katherine Westmoland (visitor)
Dear Diane and JJ's Sons and Family,
How much can we bear? How do we deal with our own grief and be strong for those left behind that need us to be? If you like I carry on strong when with the children and when alone in the wee hours do our weeping and wailing, then I understand some of what you are experience. I can not, and hope not to ever have to face the kind of loss you are dealing with daily and the pain of those precious children. I hope they have the professional help that we sometimes don't know how to give ourselves to allow them to vent and grieve in a safe and productive way. It just as difficult to watch our grandchildren suffer and stuggle as it is when our children. After all, our grand children just feel like additional children of our own in many ways, do they not. And, now your's truly need that kind of love and I know are receiving it from you. JJ was a very lucky son to have such a loving and spiritual mother and sister. I know he is watching and smiling and saying "Thank You Mom" as he sees you give his and Michele's children the continued love and stability and the security they will eventually know from that. God Bless you for all of your efforts. JJ lives through you and those precious sons and I believe his spirit surrounds you all every day in many ways, just as our sweet little Sarah Faith is all around and within us all the time. I hope the boys are also writing to their daddy and allowing themselves to be young boys, to play and laugh and trust and feel all the feelings of grief. A wonderful counselor working with us had us read a book called "Tear Soup" (also a video) and then share with eachother what we need from eachother still here to help us with our feelings. I believe it was a great help. The book is like a story book with pics and simple words, but profound insight and impact. I will be praying for all of those who loved JJ and are trying so hard to move through this terrible loss. May God send you all the extra help you need in the form of earthly angels that are friends, family, and strangers, so you may all survive this tragity and live full, rewarding lives in honor of JJ's memory (and Michele's). My heart and soul ache for your enormous loss and admiration of you enormous courage and love. Thank you again for visiting Sarah's site and leaving your kind words of encouragement. From one Devoted Grandmother to Another.... My prayers are with you, Katherine Westmoland Sarah Faith Schmidt's grandma http://www.sarahfaithourangel.memory-of.com Close
Weekly news / Your Loving Mom Dearest son, Brandon got his braces put on Thursday evening but his behavior has slipped some. He will not be able to come home this weekend but Jamie did get to come home for an overnight pass Friday night (last night). The first overnight pass in over five months. I am getting ready to take him back...he must be back by 3 pm. Jamie has had a wonderful time playing with Michael. Got to run....as usual.... we love and miss you and Michele so much! XOXOXOXOXO's love, MomClose
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